I hope everyone had a happy and safe New Year’s 🙂🙂
The best descriptor of how I feel about the coming year is ‘nervous.’ In a perfect world, this should be the time when I begin applying to grad schools, bulking up my résumé, and figuring out what on Earth I am going to do when I am no longer in school. But alas, this is not the case. I am going to be staying an extra term to complete a minor in Linguistics, and I am considering also doing an honours degree in Psychology.
My family is concerned that this would be a waste of time but honestly, I don’t know if I’m ready to leave university yet. University may be a fast-paced, stressful, and pressure-filled environment, but it’s an environment I know and love. I have been attending school in some form for the past 17 years of my life, and I don’t know what I would do if I had to go elsewhere. I am also a complete school nerd and always feel like there is more to learn. Furthermore, universities offering graduate programs in what I would like to study are all abroad, either across Canada or in other countries entirely. One might think I would see that as an opportunity for adventure, but one would be mistaken: I am more concerned about being away from my cat for that long.
This is one of those contemplative times in my life where I don’t feel 21 years old, but instead 7 years old where my biggest concern should be who I am going to sit with at lunch or where I want to have my birthday party. Sometimes school can be really overwhelming but it is a routine lifestyle that I have learned to thrive in. I am one of those people who has always known what they wanted, and so I now struggle to accept and be content with not knowing.
And then there’s deciding on what kind of career I want to pursue. I remember back in elementary school, teachers told us we could be anything we wanted, but they said nothing about having to pick just one option. As I research graduate schools and PhD programs (yikes!!!), I keep thinking that there are so many things I want to be and do, and now I have to pick just one to specialize in. Speech Language Pathologist. Audiologist. Lawyer. Professor. Researcher. There are so many choices and I just don’t know which one. Law was my plan when I started university but now I just don’t know. I am so grateful for all of the opportunities I have been afforded throughout my life that enable me to have such a wide selection, but this doesn’t make the decision any easier.
Last year, in my Hello 2016 post, I talked about my resolutions for the coming year, and I think I did a pretty good job of achieving them (though really, a study date in the library is never as productive as I think it will be), so this year I wanted to set some more resolutions, but some of these are definitely more difficult:
♥Figure Out When I Am Going to Graduate and What the Heck I Want to Study in Graduate School (If Anything)
This one is going to be a year-long affair but I have already started mapping it out and I should be good to go by December 2017 . . . maybe. I will have completed all of the required courses for application to all of the graduate programs I am interested in, which is a huge comfort so this coming year is going to be spent volunteering and exploring what careers in my areas of interest would be like. As old of a soul as I know myself to be, I do know that, at 21, I am still very young and have plenty of time to change my mind, and I must continue to work on appreciating that.
♥ Learn to Meditate
I have read and heard of the benefits of meditation and I plan on going to weekly meditation sessions to learn how to achieve this state of inner tranquility. I am the type of person who always has to be doing something “productive” with a foreseeable end result or else I feel guilty, so this will be a lesson for me on how to just be with no time limit, expectation, or goal.
This one I have carried over from 2016 because I never set up a proper posting schedule and ended up publishing whenever I had the time. This year, I am scrapping the idea of a formal schedule and instead have started a notebook of post ideas and drafts I can work through when inspiration strikes. Thus, there may be some months with few posts and others with a plethora, and I am learning that to be ok with that.
Have you made any resolutions for 2017??? Let me know in the comments 🙂🙂
2 thoughts on “Hello 2017”
Ahh, good luck with all of your goals! I should try learning how to meditate this year too, maybe… my mind is always going one thousand miles per minute and I need to learn how to just STOP that sometimes. 🙂
I am also nervous about the coming year, although I think my feelings stem more from how screwed up the world seems to be right now… like, don’t get me wrong, I’m worried about my own personal life, my own future, small things like that, but mostly I’m just hoping and hoping that 2017 will be a kinder year to the world as a whole than 2016 was. It’s still way too early to tell, but let’s keep hoping. 🙂
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Yeah, the world scares me, both abroad and close to home. But I am hoping things turn around this year. Let me know if you give the mediating a go 😊😊
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